Showing posts with label pain. Show all posts
Showing posts with label pain. Show all posts

Thursday, June 6, 2013

History of Pain - Dark Poetry




Whispers echo from afar in a peripheral world.
They are like me, hearing the rusty hum, clever to the energy of anguish and uncontrollable tears.
Static splits the picture exploring multiple images with fractured sorrows.
A prickly breath escapes, before a forceful weightiness slithers in.
I am as if facing Medusa herself.

Suspended in time, those lives that I have lived and a reign I sense only in remembrance.
My hands are weightless rolled in glass.
In silence, my heart drops to depths unknown except by the rising flow of sluggish blood and a flinch of terror. I am encased within timeless miseries that afflict the uncounted and defeat a countless many more.

So comfortable am I in its shadow that I envision the brutality of war and feel each casualty.
I am a shining star in a mournful constellation of collected souls bound by a curse of blood.
Contemplate the suffering with blue lips, feeling the worlds’ tragedies, barely breathing at the bottom of the sea. With a hook through my gullet and salt water breath I lovingly float in a fuzzy red haze.

History always remembers the pain.

Always.



Tuesday, April 9, 2013

Silent Screams




The dream is poetic.
No meter or rhyme: timing or consistency. 
The most brilliant of which lingers with the scent of yesterday.
Breathe deep the memories of a time or place.   
Real or imagined.
Snapshots of unconscious observations comingle with loathing.
Static fear.
Stifled cries.

One labored step after another
heavy eyelids and spastic joints.
Cameos of faces from the past or with publicly induced fame that does not impress me.
Larger than the life of the woken.
Grander.
Uncomfortable.

Fabulous moments of shocks and terror.
People doing strange things
Strange people who are relevant yet insane
where whim is rational and my voice is ineffective.
Inconsequential.
A concoction of all life’s hidden desires
 conscious wants and
disturbing appetites’.
Delusions.

One more moment of ecstasy in my slumber
One last visit from the mocha woman with the glittery soft breasts. 
Please let me cum before I wake.
Please let me wake before the dying shot kills me!
Metaphoric pain.
Voiceless whispers.
Silent screams.

Excruciating desire for this world of Escher to be a dream.
Desperately in need of my conscious life.
It wasn’t that bad,       
was it?
Exhale into the waking world relieved and disappointed.
Why the hell would I want to live there anyway?
                               The anti-me
The real me?
The part that has become broken and unhinge
Plagued with the absurd
in desperate need of repair.
But by whom?
By me?
In the madness of the moment who will save me when I cannot save myself?

Who will wake me?!

Sunday, March 31, 2013

The Box at Her Feet

"SHAME ON YOU!" Appliqued wall art by Laura Chowanski of Xcentric Designs


THE BOX AT HER FEET

Carries her heart in a cardboard box.The shell of a woman broken and lost:

Pulsing with life, the jewel sits inside,
Trading her love and her life for her pride.

A warrior once tough, sturdy and strong,
Turned to ashes when the love of her life
Had since gone.

Heartbroken and sorry for the seeds she had sown
Sobbing for treasures,
She no longer owns.

In the frozen moonlight she stands, wounded and pleading,
Giving anything for a new life worth the leading.

She laid her broken dreams at the souls of her feet,
A pain rose in her gut with every heartbeat.

Protecting the most valuable piece of her soul,
Mourning her life’s blood
Alone in the cold.

Through the forest he came on that dark, winter’s night,
Demanding, “Trade your humanity for my life.”

Their eyes met and held in a smoldering stare,
It was not for her, for whom he would care.

The darkness was charming, but stealing her will,
Gifts she possessed,
 He would take or would kill.

He would not be denied; it showed on his face,
His fangs were her wounds she needed to embrace.

With hope all but gone: her tears to be damned,
The undead snatched her heart and took her life,
 - Under his command.

Though she was human, she survived the nightmare,
She would gain strength and courage
Or drown in despair?

Was it fate that brought a shattered life and the life-less to meet?
Or the screams emanating from the box at her feet.

Laura Chowanski   2/14/11